Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Surgery is done.

My heart is aching so bad right now. They wheeled her in and her little head is covered with bandages because of the her skin graphing. They had to take the skin from her scalp to place it on her arm. The burn surgeon said all went good on her care. Her tummy is so large. I am very afraid.

The surgeon has yet to come and talk with us and it has been over two hours since he finished with her. I just want answers.

As I said she looks just horrible. I am dying inside. her heart rate is running close to 200. She is in pain. I know it. It tears me up. Why does a parent have to go through this. I find myself once again asking God, "Why?" I am so tired of her hurting. It is tearing us raw.

We just found out they shaved her whole head of hair off for the skin graphing. I am beside myself.

"God give me the strength. I feel like I am losing my mind. I know you promise not to give us more than you can handle and this is too much for me. Lord help me see how to get through this."

~Terri

10 comments:

Kyle, Aimee and Ava said...

My heart just aches for you and your family. Ava is so strong. I admire her so much! Please know that I am praying for you and Ava.

((HUGS)) from my family to yours!

Anonymous said...

I am a stranger and I found your blog through another blog. My heart just breaks for you and your sweet family. I pray for Ava and for strength. As a mother, I can't imagine the pain that you must feel. It tears me up just thinking about what emotions you might be experiencing. Prayers from Kansas.

Anonymous said...

Sending tons of prayers and positive thoughts for you and Ava.

Darcy said...

Oh Terri,
My heart just breaks for you. I can't imagine how hard this must be. I know God won't give you more than you can handle with HIS HELP, but that doesn't make it any easier and it certainly doesn't bring comfort when you see your baby suffering.
I will continue to keep you all in my prayers, especially for peace for you and Brian and healing for Ava.
darcy

Elizabeth said...

Terri,

Sending you the strength of Cecilia - known for all fist in the NICU. I just wish I could hug you - but know that God is holding Ava always. Hair grows back.

with thoughts & prayers,
Elizabeth

Anonymous said...

I have been following your blog on Miss Ava and I just want you to know that I have kept you and your little miss in my prayers each day! I check on her every night and each morning first thing. My heart aches for you, no Mother should have to see her baby like this! But be comforted knowing that she is in the loving hands of our Lord and she will soon be well! Watching and praying in California!

Brian and Cassi Reed said...

Hang in there Ava and rest up... I havnt been praying much latley as I too am so tired of feeling sad and tore apart inside, but I cannot help but to ask god why...and please send his healing hands down on Ava and rest them on her tiny body. I pray that you have the strenght you need to get through each day. I am so sorry that this is the hand you are being delt. Try and keep the faith...Ava~ Hope for CDH, remember that always. All our love

Angel Elli's Mom and Dad

Pam said...

My heart is hurting for you. I know how hard it is. There have been many times that I have sat on my knees pleading with God, and telling him that I cannot handle it anymore.

Please know that we are thinking of you and praying for you and your family, and especially little Ava, as she fights this battle. We pray that her pain will go down, and she will soon be strong enough to be home once again.

Pama and Rhett

Anonymous said...

You blog today made my heart ache. I can't even imagine your pain. Just remember God especially picked you for Ava's parents because He knows your strength and He knows you can do it. It is unexcusable for that surgeon not to have spoken to you after 2 hrs. Next time, page him/her overhead until he finally answers. Our prayers are with you each day.
Arlene (Wyatt's grandmom)

Anonymous said...

My heart breaks when I read your story. I am a mom of two and can not imagine how much pain all of you are going through. I pray she gets well very soon so that she can rest and be comfortable again. Healing prayers and and well wishes coming your way from KS.
Young family.