Ava is coping as well as possible. She was upset this morning that she had a bandage on and immediately tried to take it off. I assured her it had to stay on to heal her finger. She did get it off once and yikes did it look bad. I put it right back on and warned her to keep it on PLEASE! I kept on her pain meds all night alternating between Motrin and then her Tylenol with Codeine. It was pretty simple considering she has a g tube. (Sometimes buttons come in extremely handy. :) She would yell out but not wake up fully. Her heart rate was a bit high. I’m thankful I have a monitor to keep everything in check, especially in times like these.
Her sisters love to comfort her in all ways possible…..after all that is what God gave us sisters for!
A little kiss.
The hospital called today and told us that Radiology re-read her x rays and they confirmed that she had in fact fractured her finger. The sad news is there is still nothing more than can do. I will be taking her to an Orthopedic doctor on Monday. She is also on Antibiotics to help eliminate possible infection. No let’s not go there.
The medicine has made her very sleepy today and we both laid down for a well deserved nap this afternoon. As soon as it is almost medicine time she complains of pain. She is a trouper though in all sense of the word.
Wow did this accident with Ava stir things back up in my heart. I’m disappointed in myself for not being strong. I knew I was going to faint but pushed it out of my mind. I guess when I fell Ava was not hurt again but I feel guilty that I could have caused her more pain and for that I’m deeply sad. However I know that all things happen for a reason and I have 100% confidence that God was also holding Ava as I fell. I also know that I can’t be “Super Mom” all the time and I have to accept that I can’t handle it all. I’m so thankful that I have an awesome husband that took control. He was concerned about me but knew he had to get Ava to the hospital fast. AND it affirms the notion that God sends everything we need our way when we need it. My friend Heidi was here to calm me and guide us through our panic. So glad that everything worked out. Ava has been through so much but with her CDH complications I usually have time to ponder what we need to do and the steps to take. Last night there was no time and everything was in limbo. My mind just went nuts and rightfully so. You can’t stop what happens in life.
Last night when Emeline saw me after we got home from the ER, she ran up and gave me a huge hug. She said, “Mom I thought you were dead.” Lexis and her were pretty stirred up and were crying. I explained to her that my mind went on overload and I just couldn’t take it all in causing me to shut down. She was wondering who was going to watch her and Lexis if I died. I had to laugh that she thought so far ahead but hey that’s Emeline. I am so blessed!
I woke up this morning feeling sick about it all. It almost made me very afraid to even live. What is next? Can we handle more? Why must bad things happen? As I said I have faith and know it all works out. This is just another bump in the road called “Life”. Please keep us in your prayers. This accident seemed small compared to all that we’ve been through with Ava but it brought so much raw pain right back up to the surface. I’m still working through it all. I haven’t brought myself to cry quite yet but I feel it is coming any minute. I’m just happy she is feeling better and I can wrap my my arms around her. Right now she is laughing at the “Curious George” Movie when George runs in the bananas and apples and they go everywhere. Life sure has its twists and turns. The bad moments stick in our minds…I wish the good ones took priority. I know that if Jesus cares for the Sparrow He cares about me!